Someone’s Queen,
I don’t know why I remembered you today just like I
recollect you very single twilight from years. I have no idea on what I’m
thinking recently. I feel have lost sharpness towards life, passion towards
success, disturbed from core & no grit. Do you know something? I always
kept your goals as my bench marks, your intentions were my ambitions & I
lived for it. May be this is my secret of little success & being something
productive. And now I’m just an archer with no aim!!
You know, I’m a fragile soul. I want to shut the door &
sit alone in an armistice for weeks avoiding all social contacts, networking,
Office & write a book which I started long back. But I am in no position
for that state. Nineteen hours of my day is not sufficient to expand myself to
grander golly & no instant inkling too. Sometimes I feel like I’m no one in
this world just like everyone else. I don’t know what I’m searching for or what
it is. I’m always surrounded by people & still I feel my solitude.
I’m not enjoying long rides anymore. Being a born nomad I’m
not excited about travelling, resorts, fancy restaurants, pubs, clubs, luxury
spirits, distinctive cuisines & Pizzas!! Holidays, festivals, parties,
cloths, shopping, concerts, movies, TV, music is getting jaded. Nowadays I have done these things forcefully
for the sake of others. I have almost lost concerns on stuffs I valued most
since the beginning. I’m still trying to establish something from my research
thesis & I hope I’ll get succeed!!

Everlasting Nonentity…
Suri