“I found you only to lose”

My Rainy Cloud,

It’s raining early here! I hope you are doing great & enjoying. Happy birthday! I was waiting for your reply but it didn’t appear. Sorry I have disturbed you a lot by my messages again & again. I got to know how it hurts only when I got into the shoes of you.  Once you said that “messages remind someone whom we miss the most”. I troubled you like hell & history is repeating for me. Pardon me please J

 I always keep it secret in my heart that I’m carrying the storms of my love. Though I thought of you constantly after your departure until I felt the grief of separation, I didn't understand the meaning of love. Only once I was wounded did I begin to ache for you. And you left, & settled into my eyes and your name has started to come to my lips. I found love and lost you before understanding; my happiness was snatched away only after I fell in love which the storm of eye stole my concentration but love is still in the heart. At sometime, somewhere I meet you in the destination of landscape, stop the clouds of sigh in dreams. I agree that it's a deep dark & shouldn't be dirty, it shouldn't be unclear too. How do I explain to you... why I love you? My love, I wasn't able to tell you. Whatever's left that my heart needs to tell you my eyes has always explained to you the same. Yet you remain unaware. Even after having met, I haven't met you really I think. There are miles of distance exist between us. Strange chains of events go unnoticed by you. The dreams about you have settled in my eyes... Look into my eyes and you will see... the image that now resides their matches entirely with you. I wonder whether it was your eyes or what you had said that why you became my desire of heart. Despite being close, being my hope, my feelings...  It remains like this... You are not mine. I have grievances against you in my thoughts, millions of things I have said to myself but nothing was said in your presence. You are still no stranger to me despite belongs to someone else. In the end, you are still mine. I feel regret, my heart also weeps; It keeps embellishing dreams It has become mad and keeps thinking... Why did I meet you after all? Let's see who gets destroyed in the pathways to love I found you only to lose you.

Your’s

Anonymous Trekker