When I queried myself how to be exultant?

Someone’s Queen,

I don’t know why I remembered you today just like I recollect you very single twilight from years. I have no idea on what I’m thinking recently. I feel have lost sharpness towards life, passion towards success, disturbed from core & no grit. Do you know something? I always kept your goals as my bench marks, your intentions were my ambitions & I lived for it. May be this is my secret of little success & being something productive. And now I’m just an archer with no aim!!

 I stopped writing to you few years back because I felt my insanity may hurt others. The time elapsed, there was some betterment, actual good & some of my calculated risks were fruitful. The vagrant started making his own bread & butter & turned barter to coinage!! You motivated me to roam many parts of my country and borders, live in others shoes, running towards enormous knowledge, varied practical experiences & many more. Your stimulus made me cross my confines & raise to reach for more.

You know, I’m a fragile soul. I want to shut the door & sit alone in an armistice for weeks avoiding all social contacts, networking, Office & write a book which I started long back. But I am in no position for that state. Nineteen hours of my day is not sufficient to expand myself to grander golly & no instant inkling too. Sometimes I feel like I’m no one in this world just like everyone else. I don’t know what I’m searching for or what it is. I’m always surrounded by people & still I feel my solitude.

 

May be I am wrong!! I thought I’m going lazy these days. I’m letting others to win over me without much effort. I was a pacific person & now anger is getting into my head. I’m getting outraged when a car in front of me blinks right indicator & turns left. I’m annoyed on social system, some film star, politician, traffic, people around, friends, clients, mobile network, slow internet, electricity & the list grows. I would have ended many arguments more peacefully letting things go & I felt tiny remorse later. A little more ‘ego’ is letting me down to abyss. I have been misunderstood by people many times though my intention was good. It’s too difficult for me to digest others stupidities these days & I have turned myself a fool by quarreling with them.

I’m not enjoying long rides anymore. Being a born nomad I’m not excited about travelling, resorts, fancy restaurants, pubs, clubs, luxury spirits, distinctive cuisines & Pizzas!! Holidays, festivals, parties, cloths, shopping, concerts, movies, TV, music is getting jaded.  Nowadays I have done these things forcefully for the sake of others. I have almost lost concerns on stuffs I valued most since the beginning. I’m still trying to establish something from my research thesis & I hope I’ll get succeed!! 

I believe in change which always hurts. I have always chosen the difficult task to explore & try to find solution with easy ‘modus operandi’. I love challenging environment which can keep my mind engaged & teach how to magnify myself more! I have to be exultant now on. My own analysis suggested that i'm Irrational & i don't have any answers. I should try new things which I haven’t tried now. I have to involve more in physical activities like sports, gym, dance, running or anything which keeps me healthy & sound minded.This is my big year!! I have to accomplish many projects, livelihood plans & very 2016 designs I have dreamed from 10 years!! I know you’ll accompany me no more & I’m on my own against this wild world!! I’ll try to be more people friendly!! Hope is my only option!! I have to do it or perish… & let the war begins!!

Everlasting Nonentity…

Suri 

The Dream of the Night & The Night of Dreams !!

My Cherub of Martian,

I don’t know what to write except to wish for your birthday. So Happy Birthday! It’s the letter I wanted to send you after a break & all the seven letters I wrote is still on my desk. I know you will be doing great & you have a great company around. About me I am doing well. I had some rough time but survived successfully. I have a decent job as of now & it is baring my laziness. Everything is same as prior & I am not seeing anyone special. I am reading, watching & writing just like earlier but subject is new. I am loner even though I live in crowd but my brain has kept me safe against you. Please stop reading if you still remained the same person I saw as it’s difficult to read my bad poetic English.

You Know, love is like famous TV Serial. It never ends easily but people still watch it censuring it everyday till the end. To explain it’s the blister drip, confession, realization, begging the beauties where pinch connects like thunder to superfluous adores wealth. The secret love is to know the seriousness of the relationship & act wisely. Two shy loving eyes which got place in heart peacefully should always be in high spirits & Unease devotion. Love is a mood volcano flashes in life sometimes. The indulgent souls come together to celebrate the zeal of Love & warmth.

Nowadays I am flying high. It is the dream of the night & the night of dreams & the same night again but overnight will see you in my dreams. My love is a moment of false, true, not thought. I see the wantonness of my love which hides secrets from you & I heed to tell the secrets of the heart. I take the color of the same color but Whites limb buds to feed & extend the fire which hit the heart. Hope I can share with you a glass of dream & an Innocent little sleep. But it is the dream of the night, the night of dreams then the same night again. An old weather returned remember also flew east wind in mind & memories seem to fire when wet eye has also seclusion.

I cannot write more now & it’s my Maximum J

Happy Birthday again!!

Once You Love Me…!

Though the world hates you

Through the love I love you

How to make up to see you

Only thing… I dream you….!!!

“Love, Once You Love Me… Love

 Once you hate me… Love

I dono what to say you…

I breathe you”

Hey I saw you in the Morning

Noon & in the Evening

What I see in everything…

You are my only Passion

You my lovely attraction

You are my lonely ambition…!

“Love, Once You Love Me… Love

 Once you hate me… Love

I dono what to say you…

I feel you…!”

You are my Sun, Moon & Star

You my gift from Nature

I need you for my future

I’m for you, my flower…

Make me something to feel you

Every bit I heel you

I wana show the world I want you

To scream & tell I Love You...!

“Love, Once You Love Me… Love

 Once you hate me… Love

I dono what to say you…

I breathe you”

“Love, Once You Love Me… Love

 Once you hate me… Love

I dono what to say you…

I feel you…!”

 -Surendra Nadig

“I found you only to lose”

My Rainy Cloud,

It’s raining early here! I hope you are doing great & enjoying. Happy birthday! I was waiting for your reply but it didn’t appear. Sorry I have disturbed you a lot by my messages again & again. I got to know how it hurts only when I got into the shoes of you.  Once you said that “messages remind someone whom we miss the most”. I troubled you like hell & history is repeating for me. Pardon me please J

 I always keep it secret in my heart that I’m carrying the storms of my love. Though I thought of you constantly after your departure until I felt the grief of separation, I didn't understand the meaning of love. Only once I was wounded did I begin to ache for you. And you left, & settled into my eyes and your name has started to come to my lips. I found love and lost you before understanding; my happiness was snatched away only after I fell in love which the storm of eye stole my concentration but love is still in the heart. At sometime, somewhere I meet you in the destination of landscape, stop the clouds of sigh in dreams. I agree that it's a deep dark & shouldn't be dirty, it shouldn't be unclear too. How do I explain to you... why I love you? My love, I wasn't able to tell you. Whatever's left that my heart needs to tell you my eyes has always explained to you the same. Yet you remain unaware. Even after having met, I haven't met you really I think. There are miles of distance exist between us. Strange chains of events go unnoticed by you. The dreams about you have settled in my eyes... Look into my eyes and you will see... the image that now resides their matches entirely with you. I wonder whether it was your eyes or what you had said that why you became my desire of heart. Despite being close, being my hope, my feelings...  It remains like this... You are not mine. I have grievances against you in my thoughts, millions of things I have said to myself but nothing was said in your presence. You are still no stranger to me despite belongs to someone else. In the end, you are still mine. I feel regret, my heart also weeps; It keeps embellishing dreams It has become mad and keeps thinking... Why did I meet you after all? Let's see who gets destroyed in the pathways to love I found you only to lose you.

Your’s

Anonymous Trekker 

The day I roved for you in the Nizam’s City;

My Hi-tech Highness,

I don’t know what I did from the morning that day as I was feeling Ill. It was almost 9 am when I reached Secundrabad railway station. I met a friend who is preparing for IAS near Ashok Nagar signal. His first question was “why are you here?” I said “Endukochanno nakkuda telidu” (Even I don’t know why in telugu). He laughed & said you never change. I spent some time with him & his roommates. I left room & got city bus from Indira Park to Lakdika Pool. I got in to the bus 127 k & travelled for an hour passing Banjara Hills. I finally got down in your place & walked about a mile. I completed my personal work too early. I called you & you messaged me that you are not in Town.

You are the genuine Martian next to me. Its waste of natural resources for we both living on this Earth. I walked into Domino’s opposite to Cyber Towers & took an hour to resist the shock you gave me. I questioned “Why the hell I am here & what am I doing?” it’s unrequited again. I was hungry but unable to eat anything. I missed my Platinum Debit Card somewhere & it was lost. I donated whole pizza to the tramp women as I was not in mood to open the box too. Let her praises reach you. I strayed some places which you might be walking. I saw your company it’s an awesome place & I am proud you work there as I missed the opportunity twice just in some points.  I dig upped a city train & next was necklace road Station. This is the exquisite place of this city & I love it. It was pigeon’s outside the station & they played with me for half an hour. At least pigeons of this city loved me a lot. Its Cold breeze from Husain Sagar; White Buddha standing up for the Peace in its middle & I was on green lawn with a great view. I laughed at him as peace is too far from today’s generation. I wrote some shits for an hour. I had no reason to be sad. It’s all done as expected. You know I can read your mind & I can guess your next step before you think to do. I watched kids playing in the bunds starts there fight for every 10 min & I enjoyed it. It’s one of my familiar cities but I was feeling it strange that day.

I don’t understand why I can’t come out of you? Life is a big question & I failed to pretend it as a solution. You are not Julia Roberts & don’t play too smart. It’s no use when we fail to understand what we are up to & what people around us are. I just care you & some may call it as Love & some thinks its Friendship. Get adjusted to things, Take some serious decisions about life now & its time or you will be lost again.  Anyhow I won’t propose you nor disturb you. I always love you as a friend, someone who can guide & exchange thoughts. I am bit crazy as you know and now I can take anything I get. Have a smile all time. Happy Valentine's Day. Keep me posted… Take Care

          Your's

 Rambler

I was someone whom I was not !

My Color of Peace,

I just remembered the day we spoke before Six months. It was good, No fight, No misunderstanding & it was a day just like other. You said you will get a corporate SIM from the company next week & I told “I am damn sure you will not give me your number”. You smiled and said “how can you think like that”. After that we spoke for another day & that’s the end. I was just someone who is unknown as others.

I don’t know how people change their mind. As you always say I may be sticky & soft hearted but I cannot be you anytime. I got great respect towards friendship & I always humble for relationships. I was too upset when Ghazal king Jagjit Singh demise. He was my voice after you put down me. He sung for me whole day. He made me to remember you, forget you & he created little anger about you in my mind. He made some marvel in me. Now I miss him a lot too. My “Love to Hate” hypothesis was not productive. Jagjit sung for me 24 hours a day & I was in hunger to hear him still. I was someone whom I was not. I was plan to meet a Psychiatrist but one fine movement I counseled myself “what the hell I am doing?”

I got up; I got busy with new things & out of line job. My motive was not to leave my mind free. I kept on doing something. Job like hell, Writing, Friends, Madly with Face book, some foolish chat rooms, my ugly novel & its asinine research work …so on. Thanks to my sister who thought me this to do. But you were still inside me. My friends were in shock when I left the place which I loved & struggled to stay. “Yes I wanted more!!” I cannot win this world& I didn’t want that foolish thought in my mind. I wanted to do something… I wanted to fulfill some responsibilities & I am doing.

Till today I got nothing as expected & it’s same happened with you. Why to run behind desires? Is world is for money? Where the fcuk is that “Imaginary Cordial relationships”? Nothing comes free today; it may apply for love & relationship too. Many of this thoughts disturbed me to a large extent & still make me upset.

My love for you cannot be described. Love connotes friendship, memories, care, trust, honesty & everything for me. I live for it. You will get my novel’s next chapter soon. That’s it for now.

Ahead of your invitation,

Someone

Even Silence is the Greatest Music…!!

My lexis of Ghazal,

I want to name u as “Lighting” you know. Sometimes you come so close with me & just abscond without a word. I know you have watched Tom Hanks Forrest Gump. I live like that Character. For me there is nothing great in this world then you. But you the lightning as I said; I am not possessive about anything in this world. About you quite exceptional because I don’t love my life but I love you. You are my sun, moon, star, earth, bread, butter & salt. I can be without anything But I do not have guts imagine anything beyond you. You are my last hope for life. It’s not to express in words. I am weak in vocabulary as you know. I do not want to limit my love in just three words of English.

I know you are brave enough to enjoy your life. I am a coward compared to you. I am not a jolly going guy; I do not enjoy life much. Yes I am sticky as you said &you definitely know what I am. I cannot leave you like this. You made me to continue this shit writing again. I live for you; my love is just for you; my tears are for you; my heart is burning just to see you. Life has provided a small book to record the things. My problem is that it’s already filled by your memories & desires to get you. You are my question, you are my answer, you present in every thought, you my heart, my sight, and you are here, there & everywhere.

I am lone here; No friends, nothing else. Just I and music; that bugger Mohammad Rafi makes me to remember you all the time & I love him because of it. Every Ghazal makes me to feel you. I was thinking how these people converted love & feelings to words. It’s surprising that they have expressed what I failed to do as of every word I hear is just written for me. Even silence is also the greatest Music with your commemoration. Everything starts with dream, but me; I live with it. There is nothing in this writing except remembering you & I would have expressed in just two words.

We should not expect happy endings in every story and it never happens too. You know how I treat you; I am telling you again… Do not forget this fool. Be in touch.

Without you,

Your Adherent Adore

I know you love rain but...

My Lady Love,

I want to wish you Happy Birthday first. Let all gods of every religion on this world wish you a wonderful life with peace & prosperity. I am sorry I didn’t wish you for your last Birthday till the Eve. But circumstances were different & you can understand why I didn’t wish you. Sorry I was also the reason to spoil your B day happiness last year. This is the time I surely miss you on your Birthday. I may not get chance to wish you for this day. This post is the only media to send you my wishes (if you read this).

How are you? Is everything ok? How is job going on? Do you happy for what you are doing? I remember you a lot. I know where you are and what you are doing. I know you as a best smart worker & you think before you do something. Life doesn’t give what all you want at a once. It just presents the necessities. Wait for more if you are not comfortable at this point. You have awesome days ahead. I met some of our common friends. Everyone fine here. You are too lazy to share anything with your friends too. Say them Hi for a while before they forget you. Then how is Metro life? I think you are enjoying that. It was chilled sweet memories of 26 months we all spent together. I visited college yesterday. I just sat on the bench for 10 min which we were used to spend time near the gate. There are lots of questions to ask you. But you are not here to answer me now. I heard it’s too cold there. Stay warm. I know you love rain but concentrate on your Health too. Drenching leads to migraine sometimes. Take care of yourself.

It’s quite abnormal environment here. Hot, rainy & warm climate. I went for outing to dark green forest and missed you a lot. You would have never saw dancing peacock, baby elephant playing with water, snakes on the way, deer which comes near you seeking green leaves, running river & watching memorable sunset in red sky sitting on the top of the hill. You would have enjoyed the drizzling too there. I roamed a lot in rain & suffering from fever now. Tired from long journey; rock climbing and trekking. I am missing you in every step of my life & always do.

What’s special for your birthday this time? Don’t tell me about worker’s day as natural. Enjoy every bit of your life, every second & have fun as always. I always want just a smile from you. Keep smiling because you are the only one I want to say this. I will miss you on your birthday. How can I stay calm without even wishing you; dono; how to send my words? Two years of tradition starts breaking now. At-least be in touch if possible.

You are the beautiful dusk, paints the world with golden grace

You a beauty of flower, fusion the earth with fragrance

You a milky WHITE moon, spread the light in night of breeze

You my lovely star, celebrating birthday twinkling in the sky

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR

                                                   No more words to Express

                                                            Myself, Suri

No one is Friend Here:

My White Lily,

I am a guy who lives in imaginations all the time. World is very cruel and practical planet is uninteresting to me. Dream is an only thing I am leaving with. Dreams are my breath, voice, past, present & future. I bow to love, Humanity and obey it a lot. Nothing more in this world is as special as love. I don’t even kill an insect which suck’s the blood. My theory is every living being including trees have right to live in this earth just like us. Love is the only solution. Love is the heart of this universe. Nothing more can sustain this world better then love. I am finding the same cruelty which is like killing animal for food and fun in the people around me. There is nothing like encouragement from them. Money of course is the path for everyone. Sacrifice has no value for its own. Today’s Life is just “put into air”. Yes, everyone lives for themselves, But why not for others at the same time? Even though I don’t take anything seriously, some words hurt a lot. Truth has no value, friendship is something buried somewhere & relationship is never to remember. It’s better to stay alone in life without a word from other. Even we can lead a wonderful, enjoyable life by staying alone. If you think you are a friendly guy thinking everyone support you in future, some encouragement, love, trust then get out of that hell imaginations now. No one is friend here. If you are helpful, quite rich enough there will be crowd around you. If not even your best pal will break from you even you lived for them before. Everyone wants you to put in a pit and splash you forever. It’s Life the cruel one… if not…

I am a bad example who is suffering from this now and everyone have some day too. Love remains forever even though I am hurt, screwed, whatever the wrong thing can happen. Today I got gnaw by both love and friendship. Both treated me in the same way somehow. Nothing much is to say now.

                                                                 With Lots Of Love Still...

I never asked anything except a smile from you:

My sweet sweetie,

Love is enlightenment of life, love is unforgettable affection. Love is in roaring waterfalls, in every drop of honey in hub, flower which spreads its fragrance to this world enlighten our life. Love is the song of bees, language of birds and beauty of green forest. Love is the flower to praise the love; it’s the only jewel of life. A memory of love is sweetest in the world. Love is the only god survives the world.

In this Valentine’s Day; the celebration of love, I am missing you a lot. I would have some plans if you were here. But you made me alone this time and it goes on I think. Where ever you are and however you are, but you always remains in my heart. You are my divine goddess of this life. You are the light to show me the way. I never asked anything except a smile from you. I have made a garland of smile and love for you to present this time. You have stolen that too from my heart. You are my morning, noon, dusk, sunless nights and your memories are everything. I am aspiring to see you at this moment at any cost; it’s the only desire of my heart.

This breeze is blazing my heart now. I was cataleptic during the day roaming in sun; Nights are almost empty, sleepless just because I can’t see you. I am alienated from ocean and now like a roaming cloud which melts to this earth as rain and then join the same ocean. Will it happens to me? Never so; I just got my first SMS of today “In every Girl’s life there is a boy she never forget, in every boy’s life there is girl he can never ever get”

Happy Valentine’s Day

I Am a Poet who forgot the words

My Fairy Fair,

I am sitting in a sea-shore where the sun is setting under my feet. I was counting the waves of this sea from an hour and I am to miss the count for every minute. The validity of reprieve from your memories is very short. You, you, you again and again; I am hesitated to think and write about you all the time but you are my evergreen, cloud of white and treasure of dreams. My mind fly in high, roam around you & your every step with an unclear picture I get for every second. What can I say in this minute; you are in every bit of mine.

You know, I am roaming in an unknown city where no one knows me here. But I saw you in this metro station this morning. Its metropolitan city where millions of people run their life and I saw you in bus terminal again: Yes, my mind is running of illusions just like Russell Crowe in ‘A Beautiful Mind’. Literally I will become blind for some time  when I see you somewhere, feel you in my heart and remember your name even for a second too. As of there is not much hope in this life; it’s true that I may have some psychological disorders. But you are a magician who made me to forget this world. I was always an Idiot who watched your every step from the dark.

You have put me under the bars of love where I cannot surface a deep breath from the normal world. It’s a nice feel you know} I think only those who are in love can enjoy this real, nice feelings.

Some nights have death silence here. I get up from sleep hearing your voice. I have no song to sing for you; I am a poet who forgot the words. Can you listen the silence which is telling everything I want to say?

Here I have a chilled puff of air which is increasing the heat of heart. You are like the effigy of ice melted down for my thirsty touch. I followed you everywhere but I lost you again. How can I express love with you? When my heart is deaf, dumb, Blind crammed by YOU inside…

                                                   From one who you doesn't like

Is Endless aloneness is Love...?

!!Breath is whispering continuously

To endless Silence

Colours of dreams are melting

In filled and spelling eyes!!

Love is killing without stepping

Inside the hut of heart.

In the edge of dark clouds of mind

Pain is just Like a Rainbow

Is Endless aloneness is Love...?

Is medicine used to kill

Can be named as love?

The disease to survive life

Can be called as love?

In the Blanket of dreams

Sleeping on the bed of nails

When pain smiles

Tears just melts..

Is Chanting her Name Is Love..?

In the poem of four words

Can I define feelings?

In the songs of three Music

Can I flow My Heart?

In a stunned voice

Whispering a lovely song

In the thirsty heart

A dead poem is smiling

Is love is the teacher of aloneness..?? 

By Surendra Nadig H M ( English)

                                                                Song: Onde Samane (Gaalipata)

                                                                   By: Jayanth Kaikani(Kannada)

I would Have Gave You a Party for This Celebration..!!

My Divine Diva, 

Actually I have many things to celebrate today. Life was boring, Hell and more than that too. I got relief for two seconds now to tell you something. I couldnt catch you to tell I got the job and salary of a month too. The first thing I got in my mind after my salary was your name. If you would have been with me I would have took you somewhere today. I now remembered you asked me one day ‘where you take me out?’ but at that time I was with bare hands and now you are ‘unavailable’. To tell about the job it’s uninteresting as you know. My desires are more and I got stricken in middle. I feel sometime that you were the person who would have given a brake for my madness. But I lost that hope long long ago.

I don’t believe in god and you became my angel, Heaven. I was an aimless you became my only goal. You are in every beat of my heart. I know nothing, what I know is just you and your name. And I don’t say you were not my necessity and I over acted on that part and sorry for that act too. You know Love makes people blind, Deaf, Dumb and dead too. It even happened in my case too somehow. Your last Message”Bye” is my Desktop wallpaper as of now. You don’t know some facts which I tell you now... You are my believe, you are the word ‘YES’ in me, You are my Promise, I smell you in every Fragrance of this world, you are in every sound I hear, you are my smile on face and tears of heart, You are my only Goddess I believe, I pray, and I love too. After all these things how can I remember any other to celebrate with me?

You Know I don’t miss you at all.  Yes it’s a true fact. I see you always with me, every road is filled by your smile, you are the Music I hear, you are the words written here, I feel you in my every breath, you are my “Endless” and you are the only one who remained Interesting to me. There is lot more to write but it’s enough and I know you get lazy to read this one too. Thanks you once again for saving my money...(Just Kidding).

                                                   I Know you’ll always be with me,

                                                              Just Yours

You Always Have Your Presence In My Heart

Why doesn’t this world end today?

My Lovely Lady,

Every time I go to bed I always pray god that something should happen to this world so everyone and everything should be destroyed including me. You know I am going passionate to death these days; I don’t know why it came to my mind but I am happy with that thought. As I told before to you I am a dreamy boy who always has dreams when I am awake more than to have in sleep. On this world everything has its destiny it seems, from drop of water which joins ocean to a man reach his goal. But everything ends some day and what’s wrong in my prayer to the end of the world. I am getting your picture anywhere I go, whatever I do and whomever I meet. I don’t want to disturb you by sending this to you but it’s just a word from my heart. I don’t know how to respond to myself for what I do without you. It’s enough for me and I can live with your memories lifelong. For the hell sake I am still alive without any ambitions, goals and as empty hearted guy who is living worse than waste on this world. I became one, alone and alone in this crowded earth no one to care, understand me, tell me what is wrong and right to do. I am unlucky from childhood so I never enjoyed my life as my wish. Sacrifice for others, Live for many and even today I leave everything to someone and walk away. You know I thought I’ll do something great which nobody did. I wanted to do Business and to build an empire. I believe in unity as many can do better than one. I made a group of friends to share their hands with me. My dreams were flying high; I thought we are better than others. I don’t won’t to tell this to anybody except you, I changed myself for others, I sacrificed my time, money, Space and heart too.

See today, what I thought was a big joke. I am totally depressed with this. No one thinks more than his “Self”. I got the answer “I am just a mad “who dreams more. I can’t do anything with my dreams, sacrifices, my lost Life Which I can’t explain to anyone. I am in a desert finding oasis when sun is in top of my head. It hurts a lot when my beloved ones hurt me and yes I can tolerate that as it’s my habit of doing so. But how many times and how many? I am Feeling “Enough” with this. Can I live alone moving somewhere where I get just your memories? Dundna padega.. aur Bahut Koshish karna padega. Ya I’ll be on a way for that Self Revolution. I can’t explain each of them what I have done as they never asked anything to do. They have right to tell “it’s your Fate”.

Basically I lost everything except this sole when you left me and now I am loosing that too. What to do on this world loosing love, friendship and cordial relationship with one another. Whatever I do is just a one more coating of sealing my dreams in coffin. No I don’t need this world which cares none. This universal love is just bullshit. If you win you live or else you Die this is what our history, Epics has preached us. Without any option.. World is following these words sincerely. It’s not the world for me to live. Only Cunnings, Selfishness, Untrue, Dishonest, Machines and men Faced Machines have right to Live here.  And please don’t read this letter. It’s not for you and I am none to send this to you. Sorry it’s just a letter from a guy who lost his sense by loving you. 

                                                                              World’s Worst Guy 

Its 36 Days 22hrs and 43 min to see you

My Lucky Mascot,

I don’t know how to tell you about what I am now. 22mths of dreams are still continuing even today. You were my dream and you will be my dream in future too. As you know I am a fool, quite sentimental, full time Lazy and guy who do nothing. I had Dreams when I came here before. Realities of life told me you are not fit for anything and you do only nothing. I am not the centre of attraction, maybe I am not the one people love to like. I don’t bother while people scold me or I’ll show off. I think “why people should respect me when I have done nothing to this society, world, people and you too. I always have debit balance with this world. My fate is to lose everyone, bad luck in every step, scolding, incomplete dreams, never ending ways, unwanted resistance, faith breakers and and so on.

I feel alone today even when people are around me. It will be some day world shouts at me “you are mad” as some say me today. I know everything starts with nothing. But the thing is nothing always remains nothing with me. “Hope” goes to end in mind sometimes. I am not the one who desire for things from my childhood. Things are always things to me. I desired for Love and People which I lose even today. I have nothing in this world. My most eager desire was you and it was my last desire too. I can’t get you to talk anything. And you will get bored for this bullshit writings. You are Lucky for me and I was Lucky as I was with you for a while of life. I just wrote like this for you because I have no one to ask and everyone busy in their work. It’s already 36 Days, 22hrs and 54 min I saw you before.

                                                                 Not even yours,

                                                                   Dreamy Boy

No More Wait For Friday's.. Its Over now

                                                                                   My Waddle White,

This Day has a feel of Mourning for me. A wait for every Friday from last 15 Months came to an end today. Don't know what I did in these days except your dreams. You filled my  heart, soul & mind till this second. I was waiting to see you counting days, Hrs, and minutes too.Now its not necessary to wait. I can't write more today I think. Words are getting Blurred because of tears in my eyes. But the thing I almost clear is that I can't see you here after, I can't meet you in class as before & even I can't talk with you easily as early too. You know what? We din't even have a single snap together, every time you make to skip  photograph with me. There was hope somewhere in the heart so that I can see you every week.. But now I lost the soul too. I don't know how I live here after with buried dreams  in mind and your uncleared picture in heart. Thanks for being with me for complete twenty four months and my s(a)ecrate love forever. I don't even have a Photograph of you to hide in my heart. You are too moody person as I know. You speak more & not even a word sometimes. Talk to me freely, I never asked you to love me at all.. Tell me anything, praise me, scold me or do something what you think off. No more hope for me from now as you are taking my heart with you & I stay calm without a word for you. I know you read this someday so I wanted to tell you one thing. The day we talked about Love was something special and that day we came to conclusion that we are friends. You are smart worker, Genius and kind hearted too. I always have a theory that not to do the things what others are doing beside you blindly.. I saw the same character in you even skipping to write notes in class. Everything doesn't comes from hard-work, we have to go for smart work you thought this to me again.  Be a friend , best one and long-lasting one. Ya you are the right person I got and am not always wrong. You though me many things directly and indirectly which stands in my mind till my last breath. I do not get classroom to write poems, you for inspiration and me myself to write poems. I think I Quit writing poems. Let me make it happy ending at-least now..  What ever opinion you may have about me but I like you,I care for you, don't make the gap bigger.. Be a friend forever with me... and be in touch Thats what I want.. And I hope So... 

                                                          A Last bench Boy.. With Love

I think I'll edit this again

Love Forever..!!!

Love is a word that lives forever

As it is a language of innocent

No man can live without love
There is great power in love

All wars and battles ended with sorrow

Love is the only medicine like bow and arrow

All proposals, disguised disposals

Shot the enmity with love

Is anyone there in the world 

Saying 'Kill Love'..?

Love is Bible, Love is Survival 

Whole universe says Love is eternal

Love, tell her to love me

How can I express my love ?
Is there any way to tell my love ?
Love is only to be loved
Love, Love tell her to love me, love


Hey moving air and flowing water
Will you go and tell her that I love her
Green trees, Blossom flower
Will you express there after


The sun, moon and the stars
Tell her to love me day and night
The desert, Abaz and the joy
Tell her to bright me as a light


The Floods, drought and the theft
Refresh her live with me life long
Love is the one to listen the heart
What we know in us among

Gift

This is a happy day for you
There are thousands of wishes for you
I am a flower wishing you
Beauty that smiles in you


All the words of this world
Are blessing you a great wish
A bee in a honey hub is love indeed
Here for you a hearty greet


Twinkling star is for you
The sun and moon are gift for you
Every breath of the world follows you
Every green is gift, a greet to you


I have given a great gift
The words here are my heart beat
Every drop of blood I have 
Asking me to give what I can

My heart is full In the name of you...!!

What can I write as a song?

When you are in front of me.

What can I tell you?

When I have forgotten the words

What can I ask you?

When I gifted myself to you

Like a needle of clock

I am following you

What can I sing?

When I am with you

My heart is full

In the name of you

I am following you

I will be in front of you

I’ll trouble

Even walking besides you

                                   

                                   -Surendra Nadig H M

I Love you just as how you are now:-

My Marvel Mistress,

I have many things to tell you this week. You never asked me “Why you love me?” till today and more then that I never proposed you. It’s just a understanding of a individuals What love is? Here is my answer for your anticipated question.

“I love your free long hair and hair style. Somewhere your attitude is like Charlize Theron in Sweet November which I liked in you most. I love you because you are as lazy as me. I love your sleepy eyes, carelessness, your slow walk putting wait on fingers, your way of blinking eyes in some situations, smile, Cute face and I love you just as how you are now.”

                                                            

Your theory about Love is truly different from any other. I’ll accept you’re thought partially that love comes automatically if you be with anything and anyone. But in the class of 60 girls why you attracted me more than anyone at the same time. I think you had a misunderstanding with a person who lived with you from many years. Even I have a friend who is with me from four and half years and love never arise. I believe love can’t be expressed, it can be felt. Love is trust, happiness, believe, sharing, understanding, knowing, fighting and also one more thing that is seeing our lover happy... That’s in Hindi Qurbaani. I do so..

                                                                                                          With Love,

                                                                                                         The Rain Boy